foreword for 2024

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a year has passed by.

have things changed as of late? they do. slowly but surely.

like everyone else, life has been nothing short of busy especially when im looking forward to building up bits and pieces of my life.

i met different kinds of people and fewer still stayed.

not that a fight was involved but rather, people come and go as they naturally do with no animosity in between.

i do not know if that amounts to maturity or maybe just clear indifference or maybe a bit of both. either way, it doesn't matter. what matters is that the sun will still rise tomorrow that is until God decides otherwise.

been picking up on reading again although in a slower pace and more purposeful than previously done. purposeful because reading last time felt like a chore. it felt like a scoreboard that i needed to keep up with so that i could scratched off as many from my reading list. reading has lost its association with pastime and leisure. instead, it became pressure.

and im trying to apply this very thinking into my life too. this year, im taking it up a notch in whatever it is that im doing. it must filled with purpose. last year, i felt i've worked more on auto-pilot. getting things done just because it needed to get done. work-life like reading previously, has lost its meaning for me.

turning things around after a year of surviving on auto-pilot wouldn't be a walk in the park, that's for sure. if im being real honest right now, does this prospects of 'purpose' excites me? u can bet ur sweet ass, it does.

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