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  some rise to challenges. others shyly back away. invariably, we applauded those who rise to the occasions while scorned those who failed to do so.  what's worrying is that there may be people out there who use the approval of others as a measurement on how they should live their lives.  unsurprisingly, there are also others who are master manipulators  using this as a tool to keep people stuck where it benefits them. fortifying toxic positivity.  they would tell these unfortunate souls that they lacked of resilience,  of perseverance or wrongly wanting instant gratification or whatever fancy words that may or may not reflect their "wisdom".  in hindsight, these words may ring with truths and the layman may be trapped by this. im here to tell you, that isn't always the case.  for a start, you know yourself better than anyone else.  i, for one, shamelessly admitting that im a person driven by passion and by passion of others. whatever i ...

it is fairly easy to be discouraged in an unfavorable situation. to be in tatters and bruised by the invisible rocks thrown at you. to be on the look out every now and then, thinking the world is out to get you. to be enraged when you are unfairly accused. to be filled with toxicity and flung them each time you meet someone new. to be blinded by your own shortcomings because you think you are older, and supposedly, wiser. to be pointing fingers here and there without ever realizing that maybe the issue is you. therefore, it is fairly hard to be breaking out of a stigmatization labelled by others. to be kind in unkind situations. to be tough in tougher environment. to be calm when there are invisible daggers thrown around. to be accepting your fallacies and understanding that older does not mean wiser. to be fully aware that you have your shortcomings and it is alright to admit it. to be taking responsibilities in situations when you know you have to be the bigger person. in the realm o...

 " let bygones be bygones "  these words slipped out of my mouth as i sat down in a conversation with my friends the other day. out of all the things we spoke about, only these words which rang loudly in my ears, haunt me in my sleep and my waking hours. more so because im the one who said it.  to what extend do i stand by the words i have said? i used to be a firm believer of " what's past is pas t" but somehow along the way, it has slipped from me. well, it is high time to incorporate back the very essence of that sentence into my life now, especially when it is ramadhan.  i remember my mother used to say, "if you find something to be disagreeable regardless of how hard you tried to be tolerant of it, it is best to just walk away." cowardly? not at all. there is bravery in leaving too. but, how do you do that?  just laugh it off and move on. of course, easier said than done. well then, ask yourself this. how long do you plan on ruminating the same th...