a forgotten chapter

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the calm and quiet.
serenity in the sounds of soft breeze and rustling of leaves.
alhamdulillah, the noise in my head had receded for the moment.

it was during this quiet hour that i looked back fondly on times i've had with the people ive met the past year and the short time i get to know them all.

little do they know that they inspired me with their young wild fires and their young spirits. 
they reminded me of who i wanted to be and where i wanted to go for my old self had forgotten all about it.

little do they know that they have encouraged me to be better and strive to make each day count. funny how i came not to make acquaintances yet that is what i gained instead. 

we may not be of the same race, religion, age nor gender, but they inspired me just the same. 

i re-learn how to be bold and to be a risk-taker and how to humbly remind myself there are always people better than i am. i re-learn that letting go of certain things are better than holding on to it. allah knows best.

this quiet hours are best when it comes to reflecting & reliving the past. 

sure, in remembering the past, comes with it were the painful and embarrassing ones but i guess that is what makes me human.
to remind me of the mistakes ive made and the people ive wronged. rather than over-thinking about it, these memories pass me by to remind me of who i've become today.

im thankful for Him and He is indeed, the best of all planners.

the future is as uncertain as the ocean tides, but that shall not impede my will and spirit to live. if anything, it drives me forward, insyaAllah. 

lesson learned; be with the right kind of people and you'll find the right kind of path for you.

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